YAY I’m back to the gym!!! May 27, 2010

I’m about to head out the door for my regular 3rd day of gym for the week.  My whole aspect on life has changed again.  I’m still waiting for the call from Wellington, still checking the airlines every morning to see what flights are available, and still mentally rearranging my days to go when I have to… BUT (and Oh MY has my BUTT gotten big!) I’m in a better headspace.  I’m not so stressed nor felling depressed.

I tell you just what I am feeling is though, my abs, my glutes, thighs, deltiods, etc  lol  get the drift!!  :)

Thanks everyone for the support.. I really appreciate it.  I’ve been wandering in the wilderness of my own making, and thanks to those who’ve flung me lifelines

Confession time.. I now weigh 105 kg.  I’ve put on 15kg since November.  I’m going to loose it by November too!!  6 months.  Watch this space.

Waiting, waiting, waiting…. May 6, 2010

I’ve made the decision to book tickets to go to Wellington to see Dad despite the fact the he could die any day now.  I’m going up for his birthday on the 17th.  Feeling a little jealous because my aunt is going tonight (Thursday)!!  lol

I’ve also made the decision that although we’re on “hold’ I’m still going to carry on with life as normal.  It was driving me nuts just hanging round waiting.  I’m half planning how I’m going to handle every situation where ever I am, at the library, shopping, at school… planning what I’m going to do when I get the call.

Do I leave the kids at school? Go home pack for them and me while leaving Steve to book tickets?  Bring them back home? Who do I  call first (Mum {separated from Dad for well over 30 years}, brother who’s taking the funeral, sister, brother in Oz)?  Do I call my brother who’s a chef in Australia?  What’s the time difference?  Is my sister going to want a lift to Wellington?   SEE!! it’s doing my head in!!

What I HAVE done is packed a bag with the kids clothes in it for the funeral.  I’m keeping my clothes ready in another bag and ready to head off, all the while doing my (almost) normal routine while my legs are almost healed.

There’s always washing to be done, dishes, meals etc to organise, next week I’m getting back to Playcentre with Lachy, rooms to tidy and vacuuming to be done, normal routine life.  I’m finding I’m coping a lot better now that when I first got the shock of seeing how bad he was.  I’m in constant contact and getting regular updates from Dad’s wife

Life goes on and as  lots of people have said to me  Dad wouldn’t want me to go and wreck all the great work I’ve put into getting myself healthy and fit.  Time to get back on the wagon.

Bex

Just a Quickie… May 3, 2010

Hi all, just a quick note to say I’m still here, healing well… brilliantly coloured still and boy oh boy am I ITCHYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dad is still holding on, though he’s getting weaker and weaker.  I’m heading back to Wellington for his Birthday 17th May.  I’m hoping to surprise him for the day  We’re living kind of half packed at the moment.. I’m not promising to be anywhere at the moment as it looks like Dad could go at any time in the next few weeks.  Ant plans are made on the proviso that they could be abandoned as soon as I get the call.

I’m still not eating 100% on the program nor  even 80.  I’m much closer to 70, getting a great breakfast and lunch in then falling away come dinner time.  I’m not perfect, I’m no angel… but I’m working on it all the time

I’m really looking forward to my legs being pain free and being able to start more of the exercise I’m used to.  At present the muscles in my inner thighs are purple and I feel like I’ve pulled them… that’s why I’m not walking as much or running lol  Looking forward to THAT being gone!!  lol

I’m LOVING being able to get into the chat room and listen to the calls too

Bex in compression tights and slightly saggier jeans