I’ve made the decision to book tickets to go to Wellington to see Dad despite the fact the he could die any day now. I’m going up for his birthday on the 17th. Feeling a little jealous because my aunt is going tonight (Thursday)!! lol
I’ve also made the decision that although we’re on “hold’ I’m still going to carry on with life as normal. It was driving me nuts just hanging round waiting. I’m half planning how I’m going to handle every situation where ever I am, at the library, shopping, at school… planning what I’m going to do when I get the call.
Do I leave the kids at school? Go home pack for them and me while leaving Steve to book tickets? Bring them back home? Who do I call first (Mum {separated from Dad for well over 30 years}, brother who’s taking the funeral, sister, brother in Oz)? Do I call my brother who’s a chef in Australia? What’s the time difference? Is my sister going to want a lift to Wellington? SEE!! it’s doing my head in!!
What I HAVE done is packed a bag with the kids clothes in it for the funeral. I’m keeping my clothes ready in another bag and ready to head off, all the while doing my (almost) normal routine while my legs are almost healed.
There’s always washing to be done, dishes, meals etc to organise, next week I’m getting back to Playcentre with Lachy, rooms to tidy and vacuuming to be done, normal routine life. I’m finding I’m coping a lot better now that when I first got the shock of seeing how bad he was. I’m in constant contact and getting regular updates from Dad’s wife
Life goes on and as lots of people have said to me Dad wouldn’t want me to go and wreck all the great work I’ve put into getting myself healthy and fit. Time to get back on the wagon.
Bex
Good on you Bex – what will happen, will happen and you need to be in the best state of mind possible to deal with it all. You can treasure this time that you have had with him. You will know the right thing to do when the time comes – it will be whatever comes to mind first. Trust yourself – you know what’s best for you and your family.
Be well.
Cheers
B
Hang in there chicky. It is truly an awful time for you and the family and although not an immediate family member, I have been through the same thing when my 34 year old cousin’s wife passed away. You just try to live as normally as possible but yes of course it is always in the forefront of your mind.
You’re right, Dad wouldn’t want you to reverse all the hard work you have done. He is SO SO proud of you as am I and the many other challengers that have come to know and love you.
Always in my thoughts
Lloydy xx
Love you – praying for you all – hope this time in Wellington is very special for both you & your Dad!
Hi Bex. Thinking of you and hope things are as good as they can be. You are proibably up to your eyes in it but just wanted to say you’re not alone and in my thoughts.
I finally worked out where I was going wrong with blogging.
Take care. Regards from Marg